The Hallow Void

I can feel that something is continuously changing

I can feel this shadow is growing, hovering and it’s frightening

My thoughts are eating me up like a man eating an apple to the core

And this is for sure, the moment I am so unsure

I wrap my arms around this impaired body

And when I say impaired—it was eaten by these undesirable entities

Those entities were my companions during the phase of fiascoes

Then I burrow my nails until I can see the marks where my nails once bore

These melancholic words are sharper than the knives

The knives will cut your flesh outside down to the bone

Until I can’t save myself from those utterly sharp lies

And now, I cradled these shits before my tear ducts burst

I am standing here in front of the mirror

Scrutinizing what I am less or even more

Neither I can figure it out nor can’t look into my core

This mirror reflects the person’s truest nature that’s impure

Why am I here? I keep on asking my fucking self. Why am I here?

I keep on asking myself and shout but no one can hear

My knees trembled and they’re ready to breakdown

I walk away until I can’t see my reflection that is then so near

I lied on my bed together with my old friend—the darkness

The room is so small yet you can feel you’re so small and useless

My horror is haunting me just like a house rat

That house rat is inside me and is tearing up my heart

I don’t need a savior nor a hero with his arrow and bow

I feel so empty and this is a bizarre feeling I know

I can’t figure what I want, what to do or what I even need

And for now, let’s see what happens next after my cut willn’t bleed